固执

有点。。内疚。。
看了最近星座运城。。白羊座。。
haiz...人际关系gau mm tim...
可能是太少关心别人~太自主~
变到别人很难跟你沟通。。
脾气不是很好~小心我~

其实我从小。。就一直有看星座。。
很多人都不会这样无聊。。
也不会这样相信。。可是我的星座每次都很准。。
所以我相信。。。
可是现在也只是有空才看。。

最近很不满一些东西。。一件，两件，三件。。。
真的很不满。。
昨天发了脾气。。
对不起。。
可是我是真的没错阿~

你想想。。你拿人家的charger去office一整天。。
然后放工回来~还霸着它..说在office没charge到！
我要睡觉了~电话没电~明天有课~
你偷我的东西一整天！！！
还大声骂我！！

其实不是我什么都要怨别人。。（我讨厌这句话！）
是真的我很生气的了~你的态度！
我不喜欢人家做我不喜欢的事~

算了。。
大家可以不喜欢我~
可以讨厌我~
可以不理我~
可以离开我~

我不能做到你们心里要的程度~
我。。。。是我。。。

真的这么讨厌。。。就算了。。。
我人已经做到很好了。。

忍气吞声。。我只会在blog打乱！！你看过我真的骂人吗？
我只是静静等人家骂~

我有欺骗人吗？
这个可能有。。。哈哈

我有做过犯法事吗？
没有！！！但是想做。。。

我很听话吗？
我真的都很听话。。。
你要我做什么我没有做？不做还会被逼呢！！
然后想想怎么还真的这样笨~
其实是我不正常吗？总觉得自己被欺负。但是又不像。。

我做什么都会对不起。。任何人。。。自爱一点？
家人当然希望我自爱点。。。
人好难做。。。越来越不自主。。
我越来越叛逆。。固执。。


都说我很容易被影响。。
我现在什么都不喜欢管。。
想着忙东西罢了~不喜欢生活一直无所事事~无聊。。
所以就喜欢到处走。。但是不懂要走什么。。没人陪。。
一个人。。我只能走几分钟。。就累了~


好啦。。。我睡觉啦。。
对不起大家看了这么一偏无聊东西。。
开始讨厌我了吧？~你喜欢。。。（固执）

TIS TIME SIAO LiaO!!!!ASGMT!

I WAN VOMIT BLOOD.!!!!!!JUZ FINISH BLOGGING..
MANA TAU....FIREFOX RESTART.......!!!!!APA SHIT!!!!
hei hei hei~
rewrite again.........swt"

monday:art law hantar......bagi jason gau tim!!!!!!
tuesday:soundscape hantar...presetation storyboard..(wait die)
wednesday:macam nothing
thursady: aaron ......de....8 pieces...(almost can done,altough we 2 pity+stupid girl 1 group.)
dahlan de.....80% done.....put down my heart~


scare next wek!!!!!!!many things wan to hand up....
dont know got time or not.........shit!!!!!!!!!!
me monday only bec kl...skip class..
and reach kl wan capture photo again.......kns!!!!!!so rush.....

apa storyboard ..no present wil minus mark!!!!!!!i die

next saturday go sunway thr steamboat!!!anyone wan go???

ok...today quite fun.....
wennie,shianteng,ck,kt ,yc and me after class go mcdonarld..
1st..kt,yc n me...said wan wait until 12pm only eat..wennie them eating and keep ying you us~
mana tau..they 2 buei tahan ei..yc n kt..10++ am said hungry!!!buei tahan liao..!must eat~

Today is yeechen 1st time drive to the Mu..
hehe....she n kaiteck...keep changing the driver place...becuz parking..
very funny la.......!!!!haha.....i laught dao~~

then bec home...kt draw a very nice de di tu to yc...haha...aso funny...macam wan go america lei~
actually very simple nia....yuan lai........

Then tis is the photo...we go for eefan house discus art law....tht day!
c ..we r serious 1!!!!!opps...only me take photo...nia~

Bye bye..i should go pack my things 1st..tmr bec hometown..morning..
long time no bec..now dont knoe is happy or wat?
becuz many things wan to do..when u bec hometown u wil felt tired...
very rush.........and i miss some one aso....

and waiting me to bloging again....i wil show many photo next wek....
wakakaka...

梦

觉得这次精神有点问题了~
日有所思，夜有所梦~
昨天做了一个梦~还真的把我给吓醒~
然后两个小时过后，才恢复心情睡觉~
现在头还是有点重重的。。

以前我很怕看人家眼神，因为我害羞~
现在好多了~
昨天的梦是这样的~我记得不是很清楚~
就一个外表很善良的女生~遇到我~叫我看他的脚受伤了~
好像需要我帮忙还是什么的~可是根本都没受伤在我的画面~
但是我拒绝了~我也不知道做什么~
后面我在厕所里面~等某某人解决完~
那女生竟然躺在厕所~
然后我起初认不出是她~就没有理会~
然后不小心和她对眼！！
啊！！是他！！！
她知道我认出她了~眼神看着我~很恐怖！！很恐怖！！
结果她在厕所把我给杀死了~

给他的眼神~吓死了~真的很恐怖~突然变另外一个人~
其实故事里面还有很多配角~
那就是eefan,echun,kid....
只知道kid..很奇怪的为什么是我在等他上完厕所~
那又干嘛。。女生跟男生的厕所是在同一间~
因为我是站在里面等~
证明我进男厕？还是他进女厕？
根据我的判断~因为那恐怖女孩子也在里面~
所以少数服从多数~应该是kid进女厕~
可是我不知道他们在我的梦里做了什么~
完全没影响了~哈哈~

哟！！捏一把冷汗~我不喜欢做恶梦啦！！
弄到我头痛！！！

梦就是这样很怪~

我也曾经梦过~我姐姐~快生了！！！
结果生了一堆小狗出来~
在梦里面你会觉得很正常~
可是当你醒来~你才会觉得不可思议~
然后我告诉我姐姐~我梦见她~
她骂我~哈哈~可是是开玩笑的骂！！哪里讲我生狗！！

最近，也听见朋友说梦到我~那就是yeechen了啦~
他说~我跟他又被换班到u1..
接着。。他很孤单~因为她跟整班都很不熟~
我却相反因为都是从batupahat来的~
很投缘~
真是无聊的梦啊~
哈哈。。陪他哈哈一下也好~

总之~
有很多很奇怪很奇怪的梦~
我就最怕恶梦~

我
承认
我胆小~
这是家人都知道的~
但是为了符合我的外表~
我必须故作坚强~
不然很搞笑~
当中其实我也学会克服了很多东西~
所以现在的我是勇敢的~
我用了很多年才念出来打雷不要盖耳朵~
我练了很久式着跟蚯蚓作好朋友~但是失败！！
我以前完全不敢动到气球~现在的我至少敢动~
我不敢把整里头震在水里~可是那天去sunway..
还有之前小时候。。都式过了~还真的很想打人！！
在恐怖一点~我就在那边哭了~丢脸死了！！
去云顶不用叫我~因为曾经单独两个人去~被那个人臭骂~
不要带我来了~因为我什么都不敢玩~哈哈~但是我有尝试~
怕到~灵魂要飞走了~还一直喊要下来~
真的觉得自己像小孩子~
那个海盗船~一半的~云顶的~其实我已经不tahan了~
更不要讲360 的~我给你吃大便~
人家讲喊出来就会舒服点~但是我永远都不知道怎样喊在那种情况~
只会盖眼睛~把手放在头上！！不然灵魂好像要飞走了`
很辛苦~真的~

还有就是。。我最讨厌我自己~
只要人家跟我讲话的语气有点凶~
我都会害怕。。然后想哭~
妈妈受不了了~因为真的每次都这样~
然后她就会觉得很对不起我~
呵呵~

其实我比任何人都勇敢~
只是以上的东西罢了~
其他的我都不怕~
还有其它的吗？？哈哈
随便啦~我外表勇敢就好了！！哈哈

完

wuliao

• Fuyo.... Today...wake up early morning... go bank....paid wimax...... aftht bec home wimax cant online liao...so pandai.. then i adjust adjust........ok le.....

• Then..weyneng,kwan howe,yeechen come my home...11am we discus.....dahlan assgmt....until 2pm..and someone left his file at my home.. i have to bring bec him tmr..

• Then yee chen n me went to the eefan house... discus art law assgmt wif lihong,echun...fuyo...we all very serious yo!!!

• Then 4pm++...yeechen n me balik rumah..

when we go down..
hahaha...chikang douglas them....come eefan house...
they come to record sound~

• Ok...when i bec home.... jie mei call me... ask me go balai polis wif her.. then ma go lo... Then we went to the wangsa balai polis lo..

• haha..sei yeechen..ask me shun bian go record sound...lol.. but unfortunately...tak ada sound keluar ..haha

• That stupid jie mei..talking with that polis.. satu biji satu biji languange... i think the police buei tahan her liao.. jie mei said"saya hold bag saya,then itu zip buka.." something like tht... police ask her dong ,she reply xi....lol

• Then we laugh tgr.......

becuz talk dao very ga..
i think the police no believe her..
then ask us malam 8pm go setapak balai polis..
find 1 orang lagi......
hahahaha.....sei jie mei..

• i makan half,6pm ask me go with her... then 7pm bec home say 8pm no nid me acompany la....then i makan half way again.... 730 ask me go tgr again!!!!!!!!

• my nasi.....very pity...haha~

• Then we went to thr...8pm haha...orang tu really pandai to ask question.. altough i cant go with her.. haha... he ask the clever question...which wil make people die die de.. hahaha........

• Then now...at home...

my sister tel me the history again..
last time ..they 3 girls stay desa ...then the underwear n bra keep steal by people..
until buei taha liao..
then one days...
they received a t-shirt..
upper tulis"i wan to rape u!!"
then ............they go report polis...
funny lei i feel ...waste time to report polis...
becuz the police ask them go where...keep changing place..
change to very far de place!!!
but the end...get nothing....
juz pindah rumah datang gentingklang sini nia~
wuliao~

• oK LA... I very scare asgmt now...... everything macam very rush.. do this then forgot ther.. do thr then forgot this.. yo!

• This saturdy morning baru bec hometown la..

lazy to go class...
monday class maybe wil skip aso...
i bough 10am bus ticket or 9??forget jo..
reach here ady late...liao~

pa pa....

Hala.......today waste rm10.....
DUnno siapa orang..ko ko my door..
then pla~pla~pla~i din listen clear....
then ask me pay rm80...bayar sekarang!!!
siao wei....below are the dialog i talk wif him..

HE:we are...pla~pla~pla~...siapa nama engkau?
Me:ng mhing chen
HE:berapa orang tinggal?
Me:ei..cincai la...4 orang..but actually no...macam saya satu orang tinggal.
HE:nombor pintu ..
ME:tengkok atas
HE:ic no?
ME:90032101****
HE:tel no.
ME:014-9306897
HE: nah..ini resit awak keep it..nanti ada orang datang ...bagi dia masuk....
ME:mesti nak?
HE: en..sekarang kamu bayar rm80..
ME:bayar sekarang???
HE:en!!!
ME:aku tak cukup wang la...
HE:then rm50 dulu..
ME:tak ada pun.
HE:rm 40
ME:tak ada..
HE:rm20
ME:saya belum pergi tekan money la..(then take my wallet let him c...only rm10++)
HE:rm20 tak ada??
ME:tak ada!!!!
ok......me sign.......

Actually i geting blur...dont know wat hapend...
becuz me alone at home...
aso nobody can help me...
i very scare lo!!!

Then few minute...
a guy with 2 pakai security guard de uniform..de guys
ask me open door...
then satu orang masuk....
bagi itu liquid medicine....spread in my home!!!
to kill insect i think...wat the fuck!!!!!!!!!
the more funny things is i put my bra on the table...lol
becuz i wan go bath de liao...actually....
then malu betur...when he saw it!!!!!!!!!!
aftht~~~~~
busuk betur!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok...fine....i really scare to open door again!!!!!!

stil owe them rm70....
please dont call me!!!!!!please!!!!!!!!!aku tak ada money!!!!

Then malam i go dabao....get shock....this mee only rm 1!!!!
good!!!since my wallet really no money liao!!!!!
1st time like tht!!!!!!!!

Tired but stil blogging

Club house de food........sibeh sianz o!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no choice.................i dont know how to live arh~


Yesterday after aaron lecture...haha...echun n lihong ask me go make sushi tgr..
i wan excited....but...nid to do record sound assgmt..so...no choice...~
but afthr lihong sent me the sushi....walao....
is quite.........quite..............haha........
i dont wan say......




Then here is our group member record sound...we plan go to lihong house..
and below is the photo of this few guy.......the umbrella man~
the 扫地的阿嫂。。。no la..actually kangliang very hard working 1...




Then is the video i recorded..........
since i useless in the progress.......haha











dadada...art law class...many u6 come for replace cls..
then finish class hujan hujan...eefan ask alvin fetch me bec...
tq tq..since i so pity..only me gk...
tht tbr ,wangsa maju...wennie fetch...haha...

then my big sister call me...she come from batu to kl..
ask me go timesquare...she wait me thr.walao.....
sianz lo.me alone....i reject......

then go watch michael jason......walao....
i get wat is music art...haha...
actually is quite nice.....
but malan watch ji lu pian......abit......

ok...then now wanna plan how to start assgmt le..

wednesday ...they come my house do dahlan de..
then yc n me aftenoon go eefan home do art law...

thursday....1st decide go play badminton...
but now...due to several problemm
plan to go record sound le..
so have to cancel it le..haiz...

Alot things wan to do.....
stil lazy go pay wimax...
tis few day wimax let me marah dao..now line very good liao..haha

emo+tired..

怀念从前。。。
从前的我们。。。
彼此不被伤害。。受保护。。


其实。。周围的人。。
让我感觉。。大家都好好人。。
大家认识久了。。都好好。。
我才是那个坏人。。
有些人。。有心就好。。
不该要求太多。。
我要省钱。。！！！讲了好几遍。。都办不到！
其实穷有什么不好？穷。。又不是罪？
穷也一样能活得开心。。
但是偏偏就很多东西穷。。是办不到的。。
所以人要努力赚钱。。

日子才会好过。。。
我很累~身心的疲累~外在的劳累~
想找人在月光下吃顿饭。。聊聊天。。但是不要只是看着我吃。。
很不喜欢。。。真的不喜欢。。。这种感觉。。。

SUNday

SUNDAY...
A DAY TO RELAX....
FORGET ALL ASSGMT...
WATCHING MOVIE...CHIT CHAT WIF FRENS...







I now anti-maggi mee..stil wil eat but kurang makan..
Eat more vitamin..although my mother not allow us to eat..
but beside vitamin..i dont know wat things can keep health le..







This 2 siao po..keep asking me to take their photo with galong..laught til me..haha
but....galong macam tak tahu..haha....fun lei~

UNLUCKY

HUyo......crisis water again...2 time liao..in a week...
electric aso...2 time ..in a week....huyo!!!really...can go die lar...
huyo!!!!!!without water i cant live o!!!

So yesterday...i wanna go bath...PIAN PIAN!!!!when i go in no water...kns!!
then nvrm, i can do assgmt waiting for water come...
Haiyo!!!sei wimax arh!!!!!!24 hour can online 4 hour only..n is slow slow motion 1...
kns...i cant do asgmt without searching image from internet...

then i watch movie lo......haiyo...really buei tahan....liao..
my frens call me go swimming pool thr bath tgr.......becuz is management place..so got water..lol
then outside hujan........sky dark dark ei...
i jalan jalan alone....go find the swiming pool...becuz i din go before...haha...

huyo!!!nice la...nobody....only me n another 2 frens....
then we satu bath...2 outside wait...lun liu....
huyo!!!!!!i am the last...i ask them dont wait me...but they stil wan wait me...cincai la..haha
becuz aso very scare...dark dark ,hujan hujan n nobody nobody too...

Then we plan to go swimming next week...
huyo!!!i dont know how to swim la....so c 1st la...c wan go wif them or not..

AND!!!!!!

actually today morning 730...we plan to go jogging!!!!haiyo!!!!!!!!!!!!
aku cant wake up......so maybe they aso no wake up....lol...............

Quite Boring this post

-Wimax...can go die liao..........!!!!!!!!!!!
i use 1 hour to log in my blog!!!!!!!!suck betur!!!!!!!!

-happy birthday to benny n wanteng today...

-yesterday crisis water...until today morning...
i open the spigot ...forget to close it..then went to colej...
flood liao.....when i bec home...=="

-Today i felt that i like dahlan more than galong liao..
galong class really make people sleeping.................
1st time c lengzai,second time c stil ok..thrid time c ...no lengzai at all liao..sianz..

-Today i play facebook at lab...forget log out..
then satu india guy ..i dont know siapa orang...shout my name...walao..
siapa engkau....
he said "ur facebook acout no log out la"...
chech....!i bec to lab to log out...swt"

-Wennie them go kfc lunch...i din folow..becuz yesterday baru mcdonarld..
fat liao ...fat bec liao!!!!!...and wan to save money aso...
aways eat those kind things ..i ady pokai liao~

-Aiya,someone from our class..nicholas.today he show his body let us c ..dont know wat hapend to his body..then wil go c doctor.........
hope wil recover soon...

-I really felt my leg de muscle very pain lei..dont know y...so many days ady...

-MOnday.....wanna record sound again........really tired of my life..although is fun...
but can stop a while ma~

无聊寂寞的我。。。。。
在等待。。。

non stop life

4/10


with group members record sound:
kaiteck,yeechen,kangliang,juno,nicholas ,rickman and me.at my home..
we borow boom mic from kid..like it very much.....

kaiteck and yeechen.......c all very serious....discus assgmt...they 2 citchat~lol


Ini kangliang our director la!!!!pro lei!!!!!


We record footstep sound......yee chen cat walk o!!!wohoo~~~


Boom mic....

Discuss!!!!!!serious!!!!!dont play play!!!!!!!!!!!!







masak maggi mee aso got skil???


ala!!!!same same!!!!



Then we go for xiao ming birthday.............4pm at kang cheng!!!
with u6 guys!!!whooo.........many peoples...
wish xiao ming happy birthday!!!!!!!!!



We play heart attack til very fun!!!!haha.....hand pain arh~becuz of robin n eefan!!!!!!!
pukul orang really sakit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


5/11

Then now i would like to share........some photo people ask me dont post..
but i buei tahan!!!!!haha!!!!!!!!!!u guys juz close ur eys ba!!haha~
alot people help me cuci toilet yesterday ...hahaha~!!!lol
juz lent the house for them record sound la~


robin was singing......a malay song........apa ikan~apa laut...hehe


i juz sponsor my dirty shirt........

Then yesterday is the bad luck day for me.....becuz......!!!!
the lift rosak........!!!!me wan pa lou ti go colej early to turn bec boom mic to kid......
then!!!!!!!!jatuh lou ti............scare lei....head n hand down..
ass and leg up~~~wu~wu~T.T..
sakit but i pakai long jeans nvrm...haha!!!!!!!!
but my father aways teach me 人可以有事~东西不可以有事~哈哈~
所以东西没有事。。我的人其实也没有什么事！！破纪录了~老爸~
只是指甲断罢了~手黑黑罢了~is ok...哈哈。。。


6/11

Now mcdonald discus asgmt,....
hahaha!!!!!yee chen very rajin...........i wan ....said bye bye to my blog liao.......
assgmt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bYe!!!!wakakak~


Yaya..i am bec...discus assgmt at jusco macnonard...juz now wif kwan howe,wayneng,yc and a guy dont kno wat name..and i saw kylie today~

i juz wake up.....woohoo........have to start assgmt again....
later dinner wif sister.........woo...long time no diner tgr le....

now my leg very pain...小腿~i dont know y..
very 酸~walking aso felt pain....both 小腿。。。dont know y......
i din walking so much aso tis few day...
y y y??tel me??

YAYa...a good news...
i stand on balance...wakakak...really kurus 3-4 kg this time.....
but few day ago wil turn bec again.....haha...
keep it!!!!!!!!keep it!!!!!!!!!!!

Then yesterday i bec home...lian gim n odelia.....said me kurus liao lo..
ask me y???!!!!!wakakaka...i mana tau.......
but their eyes all paste stamp de la...

hehe.....i am stil fat like a pig!!!!

but i like to heard that。。。。。wakakak..hahah!!song sendiri lei!!!!

Ok la...stop siao............be normal........

End

我是一颗球

头昏眼乱。。。。周围人都生病。。我的身体也不是很健康。。也有虚弱的时候。。

互相关心。。。可能病情会康复得快~~可是都是我在关心别人。。





还是写点东西。。。。。



刚才。。本来是打起十二分精神。。要拼功课。。

谁知道。。。停电。。。以前很喜欢停电的感觉。。

今天特别的讨厌。。。

你知道为什么吗？



因为这次的停电很寂寞。。整间家。。暗暗。。很静..

外面突然噼里啪啦下起大雨。。整间家更暗！！

楼梯不停的发出。。脚步声。。电梯用不着了没办法。。

我肚子是饿到要死。。身体是脏到要死。。

因为今天。。一回到家。。就倒下了。。没冲凉。。

还有就是。。。头痛到要死。。身体开始发热。。脚板开始发冷。。

现在的我。。好想朋友，家人。。给我关心。。

但是。。想想。。我还是处在“自己是一个人”的想法比较好。。

永永远远一个人。。开心。。伤心。。受苦。。

恩。。



我只吃了早餐。。。然后就觉得什么都不是很爽就对了。。

现在的我还是还没吃东西~但是也不打算吃了~



亚。。好闷啊~

好孤单。。

好寂寞啊。。



本来那都是我。。



我本来都不该寻找快乐。。。

我本来都不用期待更多。。。

我本来都不需要有现在这样的生活。。。



我本来都是这样。。。。

一颗。。。肮肮脏脏的球。。

一颗永远不知道自己会滚到哪里的烂球。。。

一颗。。被人踩在脚底下的笨球。。

一颗。。永远不知道自己会流落到哪里的寂寞球。。。



没有目标。。

没有希望。。

没有期望。。

。



句号









“悲观的pilla......."我是一颗球"”

开心指数：30%

伤心指数：70%

没有力

Not feeling will today....
NOt energy....to do everything..........
even go colej........
morning stil ok..sakit perut nia~
now..

Dont know makan salah apa.....
keep lau sai......
felt wanna vomit aso......when i wake up now evening ady..
very cold..and hot my body...
felt wanna lie down....whole day~dont wan move le..
yeechen aso sick jorr......haiz....
Tmr have to record sound with group member maybe at my home..
i have alot assgmt wan to do aso......
felt like i 快被压死了~

嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒~

嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒嗒~

静静的。。。。。。。。
lihong 介绍的歌。。。。
其实静静的也不是什么坏事。。。
我喜欢静静的。。。。
静静的爱一个人。。。

心里面想什么。。。。
只要让我懂。。。

只要有人陪我静静的就足够。。。
恩。。。真的很好听。。。

come..talk about today...
TOday.......very tired...go for the lect only 1 hour....
then breakfast with echun,eefan,lihong....
happy...eefan answer a call can go to admision block change her result..
Echun plan that this saturday after clas...go to the sunway...thr makan steamboat...
rm20 left,right...anyone wan join???is buffet.....
AFrtht..
yeechen come fetch me go oldtown do assgmt..
me,kwan howe n yee chen......

we look hard working....but din do anything aso...lol...

Then went to the art law clas...really feel sleeping.....
but cant sleep aso....later tutor come n tel me the law..which section...student cant sleep in class...
when teacher was teaching..........lol...then i ma siao~!mo tim tim go 法庭~
哈哈。。。。想很多。。。。

Then nvrm lo..i take out phone and play game.......
i felt like who jalan folow my back.....sure become rich...
i one day hilang rm1...becuz i put in pocket.....
then aways people help me take bec...when i jatuh money!!!!!!!
is aways o!!!!!!!!echun,lihong ,yeechen them all know........and pla~-pla~pla~me..

i really pokai liao la!!!!!!!!keep like tht...

THis few days i aways repeat listen the same song...........
that is .......
寂寞，好了
要走了
说谎

realy nice...but all guys sing de...so i dont like sing..haha
ya...this thursday kwan howe plan go sing k.........who wan????????
now only me comfirmm...........u guys really dont wan give people face lei..
then free i baru go play badminton with yee chen......
hehe~
That is all for today...............fine........good.............i wan sleep lo......
tired..................bye bye.....



evening........time............
Arh.......seriously....i wanna find a place to vomit...
long time no take a normal dinner liao.....
today no more maggi mee.......becoz people ask me dont aways eat magi mee~
then i go downstair...eat pan mee...oi...eat half only...bec home felt wanna vomit..
wat hapend??aiya..suan le la...wil be fine soon.....

Then juz now when i eating...saw a small girl girl....
pakai school uniform.....and birng her heavy bag aso la...then becuz hujan....she almost ...
becuz no umbrella.....

and i saw she walking......in ...then order nasi n sayur....take out her cute cute wallet...
then seat down n eat alone.......really pity...........

在街上~走着~坐着~都好喜欢观察人~
周围人跟我讲话~都没感觉~
到我姐姐不爽啦~因为她有时跟我讲话~我都没理会~
是不知不觉~不是我要的。。。呵呵。。奇怪。。
都在想自己的东西~或看东西到太入神~

好累~好累~每天都好累~想睡觉~
要睡觉时~又不想睡觉~真是搞不懂~
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

ME

Should be queit me now......

I dont know wat happend going on........

And people dont wan let me know aso........

wat can i do........

i dont like disturb people............

so wat can i do...........

i juz listen music,doing my assgmt,eat maggi mee....and later sleep......

sad in heart..

no chance to comfort people....

突然

忍气吞声当中。。
我说过的~我要改我脾气~
几乎都不把什么回事~当什么回事了~
偶尔跟姐姐吵一下~挨骂一下~我才会改~

所以自然忘记什么跟什么的了~
怎么大家。。都好像。。很怪。。最近。。快乐的时光总是过得很快。。
我的心情好沉闷。。谁来跟我说话。。
不用尽~我相信明天会更快乐！！

我竟然不敢动我的功课了~
怕做错~所以。。
还在摇来摇去~呵呵

我一直在想。。

为什么人类。。一定要想来想去呢？
为什么人类一定要被人家想~你才会感觉舒服呢？
为什么我要每天想着同样的一个人呢？
为什么人家可以想什么就什么呢？

不懂。。这种叫不懂。。
不知道要去哪里找答案。。
可是也不用找。。。
因为。。。。。。。。
我可以选折想自己就好。。。如果我能控制。。。
怎样才能不会一直肥下去呢？
怎样才能聪敏一点？
勤奋一点？
乐观一点？
呵呵。。好像很多很多。。我需要改进~
但是我希望接受一个人。。不需要他的改进才会喜欢他。。呵呵~
或是改变到你想要的程度。。来满足你自己。。哈哈！
而是喜欢他原本的自己。。嗯！
所以希望我自己做回我自己。。哈哈！

但是。。

我一直都达不到大家的要求。。
觉得自己好失败。。失败。。

我本来都是很开朗的人。。
只是很感性罢了~
一点点东西可以搞扎我整天的心情~
当然一点点东西也可以让我开心一整天。。呵呵

以前超喜欢顶嘴。。顶到赢为止~
我自己爽。。呵呵
跟老爸妈顶嘴。。直道我觉得对不起他们时。。我才变了。。
现在超级不喜欢顶嘴。。因为我觉得这样很伤自己~
可能。就那小小段的顶嘴过程。。会
让你。。听到你不喜欢听的东西。。还是让你听到别人的真心话。。
一刀刺进你的心。。

我不敢。。给刀叉近来。。很痛。。真的很痛。。
我怕痛。。

无论是内心的痛还是外在的痛。。痛只能一个人承受。。闭门而哭。。
不知道panadol 可以治疗内心的痛吗？呵呵
希望科学家们~快快研究出来！！
这样以后大家什么痛都不用怕痛了！！哈哈
无聊的我。。又在想无聊的东西。。
我喜欢。。。：p

但是都不干事啦~
今天的我很快乐。。
我没必要掩饰自己。。
因为我真的很快乐。。能跟这么多人在一起。。
但是我只希望明天会更快乐。。哈哈哈！！

有够贪心咯~
谁不希望快乐？哈哈

很喜欢写到长篇大论。。
这样大家都回懒惰看。。
然后我也比较舒服。。

突然有一种很怀恋。。怀恋。。以前跟三个姐姐们住在一起开心的日子。。
我等着二姐放工回来。。帮我解决一些问题的日子。。
忙了一天。。
她帮我复习intro to art那个subject...
那时的我心情很闷。。一本这样厚的书。。不知道怎样读。。
她看了下。。我看他是看不懂。。读acount de..
她吩咐我到图书馆复印pas year paper..
然后。。等了我几天。。我才去做。。
然后她看着pas year paper..
帮我解决问题。。我还是在发闷气。。死老师。。臭老师。。什么的。。
第一次看到她这样崩溃。。
她骂了我“你上什么课的，什么都不懂！！很多很多。。”
然后她哭了。。

我不知道。。真的不知道。。
对自己没有目标。。
反而是别人伤心。。。

觉得自己很对不起她。。
现在她不在了。。
我扛了她的责任。。
我想照顾人和事。。
我也想帮忙人家解决问题。。

当然啦~她在的日子。。好吃好住好玩。。
整天讲我的豆豆，黑眼圈什么的。。
一直带我去买有的没的。。

但是我也很好啦~
她想喝茶~我一定陪。。
她生病我陪她看医生。。

其余那两个姐姐。。
我真的不知道有什么难忘的事了。。
除了被骂。。还是被骂。。哈哈


真的好像好像回到以前。。
现在的我什么都要自己解决。。
也没人关心我了。。

但是！！！！

我可以关心别人！！
把你们的烦恼统统给我吧！！
把你们的一身交给我吧！！

walao....!!!
要不要这样夸张啊！！！哈哈！！

picture show

SO miss my sisters and brother:






I am getting lonely.....now only frens ........and frens......... can give me happy..
and give me more fun in life.....................
i like to go out.....anyway aso can as long dont wan at home......
i go out then happy...is just a easy way to make me happy...
so this few day i felt happy although that is alot assgmt....
my frens still bring me go out makan or wat.......
i like u all..................muakz muakz........lol


So many days show people's photo.....
now come to show my photo when i was kid.......hehe...
memang fat .............
so now aso fat la.......that is y....haiz.........






My brother...although he youger than me...........
but i still call him"gor gor"........or "gor"
he like to make post let me capture........
but not handsome aso.......lol



That day ,yc fetch us go paparich discus assgmt............
quite serious we all........becuz really wan rush the idea out le...........
yee chen looking to my comp........no leng zai.....lol
we r rajin 1!!!!!!!!



This is lihong 's birthday that day i bec home wif her......
her cousin giv her de present..................nice.......
like her face...........lol





i really fall in love to korea food.................
this few day eat maggi mee,roti,and go out eat with u guys......
really cincai eat............not so enjoy................
i miss korea food la...............
especially kimchi~i makan habis liao.....
where can buy?



That day going timesquare......and capture something...........
funny...........lol


THis is a extra post for today................
tmr continues my life again....................
good nite...........

LOL

我的心情就像。。。大便这样~每天都不一样颜色..昨天不开心~今天开心~明天伤心~
My mood just like shit...everyday aso diferent color...yesterday sad today happy tmr sad again.

其实。我觉得最近很开心~
都有很多好朋友~在我身边~
我开始很会找人讲话~有的没得都讲~
也才刚认识班上的一些以前没讲话的人~原来大家都很谈得来~
很好聊~

朋友还是朋友。。。
我喜欢我身边所有的人~我会好好珍惜大家~

Today morning allen class.....8am...z.z.z.zZZ
finally i learn something...........

After clss...have a group discusion wif yc,kwan howe n wey neng..
we have fun talking n discusion..at clubhouse~
I am clever 1. we discus..we "tao jia huan jia"and i push all the work to kwan howe..
becuz he said he can do it!!!
lol.......i know u very kind de.........haha...and drawing aso good ma..haha..
he aso not angry la..juz smile smile n smile...i think he like to smile....
and give de idea aso quite funny n creative..lol
and the weyneng aso quite geng although he abit queit...haha
very fun n happy talk wif them...

Then only me go for the lecture........
and i said bye bye to 懒惰人(kwan howe,yc,weyneng)
only yee chen .no choi me....!!
becuz she said she no 懒惰人~~lol....



Ok...
Then go to the lecture.....seat at li hong that row..
nobody wan choi me........
so change place to find my chieh meei......

hehe...open school so long le..now only talk with her..
really many things can talk..............

Then heard she said........
our block got "色狼"
aways go lift wit u......
then wait u to tekan the button which stair u go..
then he follow u...when the door open....
he juz pinch ur breast or ass..
and kick u out from lift.......
he is a malay guy......

becareful........everyone!!!

that is y i felt this few day when i take lift felt scare..becuz got alot malay guy..look jahat..
and all eyes looking for u...and i alone..and talking something.....in lift....becuz here kurang malay guy stay de ma~so i felt qi guai....many times like tht le...

before that i never know got 色狼~
but put down my heart la........
That all 色狼 eyes paste stamp mei??????
I din felt danger......juz scare my wallet nia...
no wallet no life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHA..

Then finish lecture...............
odelia,efan,eechun,lihong ,chieh meei and me went to tbr makan......
before that we 6 in car ..echun n me talking cantonis........lol!!!!!
they laugh til!!!!!!sakit perut...
i forget wat i say le la...but lihong sure remember wat i say..
i din felt any wrong..but they laugh dao tak berhenti!!!wat happend?
said i talking oversea language!!!!!!!!
and .............we aso......
hahaha.........we gossip abit......
the jason call me said got class now.....ady 2pm le...clss on 1:30...misteng replace cls
becuz tht day sudenly cancel class..........
so don wan go le lA~HAHA



then bec home ...meet xin hui......
and i play something in lift with her.......really funny la!!!!laught til me!!
and she scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!in lift!!lol.........


Then now i felt sleeping................
but someone ask me dont eat liao sleep ,eat liao sleep...
then now i nid to run 10 circle in house only can sleep...............
SWT""haha


Then juz now play facebook....c....
yeechen post

其实我应该每一天都觉得开心~因为我拥有了他。。

hehe.........其实我要讲..........i have the same feeling wif u.......


lol

STRESS

I am in bad mood today....
getting stress becuz of assgmt......
brain ady empty..wanna come out many idea within this 14 week..
sometime when ur brain was empty..and stil nid to force urself come out with the idea..
i wanna to cry....really.........
when ur work show to teacher...and teacher shake the head...
getting more stress....and whole day no mood......becuz have to rethink the idea again..

Ok...today wake up early morning.....
9++ am......i go bath.......
and when i come out......so many miscal......
li hong ask me come down now....with odelia n echun....
they waiitng me downstair take breakfast......


then i faster pack my things...hair belum dry.....
then go down....and odelia sent us to wangsa .....eat pam mee.....
unfortunately ...i ady eat roti le......so juz .....order a drink.....teh tarik..
then talk talk n eat eat........
echun ask me a "stupid"question again.....

Then odelia sent me go colej........
Finish class.............
have a group discusion......
at sri rampai......paparich cafe....with kwan howe,weyneng,yc,juno(lebih de)XD
we seat at thr few hour....
and discuss....until otak very dry.......
we all geting queit........becoz thinking the idea!!!!!!!
sianz...................cham!!!!!!!!!!!

ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!i felt tired of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything seen like 没有结果！！！
I very scare!!!!!!!!!u know?????

Dont open!

Sei eefan!!!!!u dont tel lihong that link to edit photo la!!
i really buei tahan her liao la!!!!!
now i geting scare to chat with her and open facebook too.....when saw this photo
i now post here aso wil scare to open my blog..

she wan to fight "siao"wif me......


Today...morning i go pang my back head gau gau lat!!
many star come out infront me..

Then nite go bath...
i think is kena scare by lihong...
i finish bath...then slide down on floor..
屁股开花！！

my sis saw and laugh me til take boleh henti..
can someone....stop her?
buei tahan!!!

Today 2 times attack..
dont know y..

very blur me now

Explain

1st i would like to explain.......
i like to take photo...
i like to make my life more fun,more happy and more enjoy...
i admire galong......had a very nice skin......and appearance...juz jealous him...

people said me "thick face"o???ker hiong gan la!!!!!!!
Stop to talking him infront me............i juz help many girls take the photo..i sure they aso save the pic in their comp de!!!!!

haha......nvrm...i din care le...as long me happy...that sei echun aways said my bad...always doubt me this doubt me that..i do wat she aso can talk..sibeh buei tahan..aways shoot me until me lazy talking to her le.....

Today i would like show some photo...
hope u guys dont angry............juz for fun.....all handsome handsome n beauty beauty one~
hehe.....and cute cute 1......


This is when justin clss.......all we boring dao......lazy rotate photo...wakaka. rotate ur comp ba~
ya ..rite...i wan to said ..today i morning c justin 11am,afternoon c justin 2pm,nite asi c justin..6pm
sibeh sianz o!!!!!!whole day saw him...



Then this is the lect time..........
i saw people very enjoy c comic......when he teaching cls......
i know behind that aso got people c movie and laugh de..........
all enjoy themselve..................
becuz the lecture is too too too too boring la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
copy copy copy copy notes!!!!!!!!!!



Then li hong ikat her ramput.........very funny.......so i took the photo~
rotate ur computer!!!



And aso very enjoy.........to draw herself........



Afterthat we go replace u3 de dahlan class..........
but saturday i still go.......becuz........wanna show assgmt aso.........haiz..........


Then dinner ........at genting klang........hometown steamboat~
who go????
odelia, robin,lihong,me,echun.....1 car
chew yee, chikang, benny,kae,efan ..........1 car









Then telur tak sampai makan habis......
tak ada orang ambil bec...
i c dao telur aso scare la..
aways maggi mee wif telur........
so odelia hold it......
put into plastic wif alot tisues paper...


Robin bawah balik..............that is all...............XD..he said his rumah tak ada telur la..haha

That is all for today......my life.......and my frens's life..........
good nite evryone............and take care urself........................


28/10

LOve is complicated...
as li hong said.......

Everything is complicated.......
Yesterday something happend...very serious..
Couple .....couple.......couple........couple life really diferent..
u love he/she ...u must understanding he/she ...

Y cant calm down??and have a discussion...
for me.......everything happend just keep in heart and queit....
i wont talk back.....n wont argu....except when i was very angry...
1st thinking about myself....wat the action i do....let him so angry...
does becoz he care about me???..
or i talking something to let him no face????
i din care his feeling???
no thinking for who true who wrong 1st

This world wont exist of 2 same people....
Everyone aso got their bad n good site....
Everyone aso got diferent angry point.....
Everyone aso got diferent lifestyle......
if u love he/she.....u should accept wat the things he/she like or dislike...
and learn merge to his/her life...

And i never think that becoz of that toothpick..
can made a 3 years couple to break......
is too small case.....
that toothpick...aso dont know produced 3 year liao ma....

TOday.......heard u guys ok le...
i aso put down my heart le....

Actually today i damn happy!!!
everything is fine.....
Damn happy becuz of eefan de case!got chance le!
Damn happy becuz of that couple fine ady!!!
Damn happy becuz of someone no 头晕了~

I wake up early morning and through the mesage to know all of this..
then sleep bec again....until 1pm...
Everything was fine....
Wohoo!